dear diaRY

Maybe it i just meant to be...

Recently i heard a story that if u hooked up with your fren's ex bf, then u are d bitch...
I din know there is a rule not to date fren's ex bf?
Is it true?
I mean it is not like it is like right after they break up?
is it a total no no or there is a time frame to it

Can anyone explain to me?
i really dun understand..

I mean i dun mind if anyone of my fren wanna date my ex bf..
not that there is anyone u know wan to.. lols..

so is it a girl crime to date your fren bf?

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did


* sometimes when i think back, this is how i feel  guess, not that i am still in love but the  pain is just that unbearable!

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry


* this lyrics hold dearly to my heart, felt like this was meant for me...

It is 11.55pm, just finish shower.. just finish cooking my all-in-1 porridge for tomolo breakfast...
My sweats is like freeflow even though i just finish shower only... damn!!
Anyways, i am having 1 small little bowl of my porridge because it look so tempting in the pot, as if it was calling out to me to eat it...
Raining with thunderstorm and light though it is not heavy...
My internet sucks at the moment.. but i still manage to type this post...


Lately I am slowly picking up my slacking life back to order...
Having a test this week fri, Law - 4 steps process.. am gonna suck big time..
Despite that i think i did well on my test 1 n 2, got (10 out of 15%) & (14.5 out of 20%)... not exceptionally well but it is good enuff for me.. hehe...
Fren comin from kl tomolo... Convo this week...
Might have a photoshoot for glasses this week.. but i dun really have any confident doin it because i dun feel good about myself.. when u dont feel good bout yourself.. nothing feels good...

Dunno why my mood is a bit cranky lately.. as per my roommate i am always cranky.. i dun deny just that i never get to calm down n relax.. as if my mind is not in my head.. i remember this but i forget that...
Hmmm... is that de sign of getting old.... oh no... no beauty.. no body... no looks... now no brain.. i am a goner...nobody wan liao lo... Oh dear... gotta do something about it... lols...


Anyways.. time for my yummy porridge

To be ignorant of one's ignorance is the malady of the ignorant.

I am suppose to sleeping right now...